I have been struggling. Struggling with whether I know enough, whether I’m good enough, whether I can achieve the goals I have floating around in my head. Today I’m saying STOP. I’m sitting with my insecurity and I’m letting it go.
Instead I’m reminding myself of what I can do to keep moving forward, to keep enjoying this new space I’ve created.
I will work on what is energizing and motivating for me in each moment and encourage my left-brain to let go of its need for order.
I will remember that I am not perfect so my posts don’t have to be either.
I will embrace imperfection.
I will remember that this is my space on the internet so I can write about what I want, when I want. There are no rules saying I have to follow a schedule. I can use my schedule as a guide and then add, cancel, move things around. Nothing is written in stone.
I will remember that while this blog is primarily about mindfulness and memory keeping. I am a human being with many interests, many thoughts, many ideas. I can share any or all of those things here in this space.
I will write.
I will not let my fear of failure, my fear of not knowing, my fear of imperfection, my fear of not being good enough win the day.
I am courageous and strong.
Especially if courageous and strong means putting pen to paper or fingers to keyboard.
Especially if courageous and strong means continuing to put my creativity and energy out into the universe in an open and honest way.
Especially if courageous and strong means sitting with and loving who I am, no matter the imperfections and no matter the mistakes, in every moment of every day.
What are you currently struggling with? Let me know in the comments.
Thank you for reading. I am grateful for you.
This post was inspired by my daughter. We are working on getting caught up on her Daisy Girl Scout petals before the end of the school year. The red petal represents being courageous and strong. My daughter can proudly remember her own times of being courageous and strong. I want to be an example of courage and strength for her too.
Patti L says
Love your thoughts here. I can relate. There is so much I had wanted for my blog, but it just so happens I am in a very busy time at work and doing things around my house. I have to remind myself to just let it go and it will be there for me when I am ready.
At least we took the step to do it in the first place!
Thanks Patti! And yes it will be there when you are ready. Best wishes at work and on your home. Keep creating. I LOVE your layouts! =)
Monica Bruno says
What a wonderful post, Marina. I think we all struggle with those internal demons that cause us to doubt ourselves. I love that you have created this space to be you, it’s very inspiring!
I think you’re right. It’s just our ego that makes us feel like we’re alone in all this. Staying present with my own work and using mantras while I write has been helping me too. Thank you for reading!
Shelby Brooks says
I’m definitely going to keep this blog post around for reference whenever I get stuck on my blog and have to fight those thoughts from my left-brain about maintaining order. Thanks for being honest and sharing what you struggle with. It is helpful to not that we are not alone in our struggle with internal demons as Monica said.
marina delgado says
Writing is a beast. Talking about our struggles with it and then relating to others really helps me push through. I’m glad it struck a chord with you too. Thanks again for stopping by Shelby! =)
I just wrote a blog post about my blogging insecurities so I was searching for others. Great post! Very motivating. I needed to read it… And like another commenter said, I need to keep this around for future encouragement. :)
marina delgado says
Thanks Jessica! I’m glad my post resonated with you. I think insecurity in blogging, and in writing in any form really, plagues a lot of us. I think it helps to just get those difficult feelings out and get back to writing a little bit each day. Thanks for visiting! I’ll be sure to stop in at your post too =)